I Will Rise

I have learned a lot in this past week, about myself and about God. God has a way of taking something you are hiding from the world and bringing it into the light for you to overcome. I know now that God doesn't want this for me. He didn't plan this. This isn't something I have to go through because I was a bad kid or something God has planned to test me. No, those are lies. This is something the enemy is doing. Satan may be using it in hopes I fall into sin, in hopes I turn from God, in hopes I commit suicide. But God, my Daddy, my Saviour!, is going to use it for good. I do not know what that looks like in the longrun. Right now I see how He is using it to help me overcome my fears: my fear of leaning on people, my fear of asking for help, my fear of letting people see the skeletons in my closet, my fear of crying. God is using it to help me get DEEPER into Him. I am learning so much about my Daddy during this time. I am learning more about my spiritual giftings. I am STILL ALIVE and walking with Jesus. To God be the glory. And thanks be to those who are His Children who are (thankfully) yielded to God and His Spirit and were able to come alongside me during these past 5 months and help me stay on the narrow road. My Spiritual parents do not have a Facebook. But to my other spiritual parents, Shawn and Stacey, and to my brother and sister Chris and Michelle, thank you. Thank you for hearing God's voice and being a vessel for Him to flow thru you, to use the giftings He has given you to reach me during these past 5 months. You are such beautiful people. Jesus reigns and the fire can either consume or refine... may I be refined 'to be more beautiful than the tanzanite'.