Twin Spirit

I sit in the corner, seemingly alone

But there are voices in my head, cold

A room full of people

To them I look angry, not feeble

People see me as a dark spirit

They see me in black and fear it

The truth is inside I’m so vulnerable

Once they get past my walls, I’m so feeble

Yet I can’t let anyone get too close to me

I can’t let them in, let them see

I’ve learned this lesson before

They’ll get in, then I’ll hurt more

Oddly enough a part of me longs to be free

She wants to heal, to be seen

The voices tell me no and I continue to sit here

Maybe one day someone can break through these fears

It Bleeds

I'm the one who always needs to be strong

Head held high, never show something is wrong

But deep inside my soul is just bleeding

Tears fill my eyes, stops me from seeing

I can forbidden to ever shed a tear

I am not allow to ever show my fears

I have to be the one who everyone leans on

The only emotion is shown in song

Pape is dying, Mum has cancer, life is Hell

Yet I am not to show a single tear when I wanna yell

I wanna yell that I am hurting so deep inside

But all I can do is hold it in and bide my time

Yes, my past has made me strong

But all the habits I adopted are so wrong

I act like I am completely okay

You all believe these words I say

But I am not as happy as I seem

Deep inside, this soul, it bleeds